Its a Boys Life

Its a Boys Life

Sunday, May 2, 2010

the WORST morning Ever

so i'd just thought i'd let you all know this so that you'll understand if i'm not here as much as usual...
today i asked my partner of more than 10 years to leave.. I havent been happy for along time now with our relationship but just kept going for the kids... And after a day of stewing yesterday at work i figured that it was time to do something for me.. To look after me first, so although it was hard and i still feel ill about it i bit the bullet and asked for some space... I sincerely hope that we can and will be friends especially for the kids.. i can guarantee that doing this and basaically breaking up a family is by no means easy.. hence why i have stewed and thought and tried seriously hard for the last few months.. if i'm being true to myself probably 6 months or more...it is so hard...and they say that people fall out of love and i would never have believed them if it didnt happen to me.. although i still love rodney because he is the father of my kids i had to face facts and admit that i'm not IN love with him anymore... i never get butterflies to see him etc. and it truely is hard saying this but its about time i faced up to the truth and started to take my life seriously and really try to be happy again and not just pretend because thats how its supposed to be... so today is the start of whatever, i dont even know.. but heres hoping that some good will come out of this.. i know it'll take some adjusting for the kids and for me..trust me i am seriously crying whilst typing this...but it has to be said and i can start living and stop pretending...

I hope you all understand and no doubt will offer your support.
all my hugs and sugar...

oh i will post the layout that i finished as well to brighten everyones day after all this gloom and doom.
oh and i will keep scrapping it IS MY THERAPy.

9 comments:

Shell said...

OMG. Are you Ok buddy? Im so sorry to hear your sad news. Reading your post has brought tears to my eyes.
Im always here if you need a shoulder.
Im thinking of you. BIG BIG hugs xx

Leanne said...

Oh Leanne! :( My thoughts are with you over the coming days. I hope you and your kids will get through this and understandably...this is not going to be easy. Know that you have love and support out "here" in cyberspace!! {{{hugs}}}

JODIE SIMPFENDORFER said...

gees, Leanne - I am so sorry to hear this - it must have been bloody hard - but goodonya for being true to yourself. I'm a firm believer that things get worse before they get better, so hang in there. Sending you hugs...Jxx
Ps - thanks for your comments on my blog - i feel all special coz I've got 2 followers (admittedly one is my Mum, but never mind!)

Kim said...

Leanne my thought and best wishes go out to you and your boys, stay strong and love your boys

Dolly B said...

Oh Leanne, so sorry to read that you are going through such a sad time, but you are one strong lady in being true to yourself. Wishing you & your family and your partner, strength and courage and what ever else you need to all come through this finding peace and happiness
Much love and hugs
Mary x (from the Boxx )

Rilzbee Creations said...

Oh Leanne, I can imagine how difficult it must be, but yes you're right you need to think about what is best for you to be who you need to be!! Hoping all looks up for you soon. Anything you need just call out xoxo

Chloe :-) said...

SO sorry to hear - what a difficult time for you :-(. Best wishes xxx

bridgedan said...

ahh leanne that is tough for you to make such a hard descision like that, what a time you have had with your little poppet hearting her self too poor you :( big cyber hugs coming your way!! did ya feel it LOL!

AnnetteL said...

Oooh Leanne, thinking of you hun. Sending you hugs and the warmest wishes. This is understandably difficult time for you.

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